wowee. this weekend i clocked in abt 17 hours in church. qt tiring at times but God revives me :) i guess i should learn to start saying no sometimes but i dont really want to... just dun wanna end up like martha i guess. anyway, ysts sermon was abt purity and i guess tt spoke to me cos it made me realise how the world has insiduously influenced my mind and turned me from the path of purity and righteousness and i know that as a leader especially, this should not be the case. dunno la been thinking qt alot abt stuff and still haven come to much of a conclusion but its not been stuff in a bad way la just reflections. anyway, christmas cluster is exciting heh. i really hope that the younger ones will be able to catch the passion! it may seem like a simple event but lets make it a great one for God yeahhhhhh :)
sometimes it seems like the path i am on is so difficult and i cant see the goal and like i know that when i fail God forgives and will help me up and never stop loving me but its just a struggle i guess to constatly remind myself of that and not let despair take over my heart. why is it that as a christian my testimony for Him is not as strong as it should be? why is it tt i can look around me at non christians arnd and see that they are better people than i am? what kind of testimony am i? and its like i dont want to be this way and i know that God is shaping me and changing me but i do wish He had made me our to be a better person in the first place so i wun have to go thru stuff like this.
gosh so depressing this post. HMM. ok good things: NO SCH TML!!!!!! yay haha. but got git 2 :p and so funny bry actualyl asked me to wake him up! yahhhh haha. after dengs lesson on how to wake pple up i will not call and hang up anymore haha. speaking of deng, twilight zone will be fun! go go go haha. :) i must study really hard this week so tt i can go for it too! they are recceing it tonight and i hope tt God will give us a perfect place and good weather on tt day :) so funnnnnnn hees.
no matter what may come my way
my greatest love is You
sometimes it seems like the path i am on is so difficult and i cant see the goal and like i know that when i fail God forgives and will help me up and never stop loving me but its just a struggle i guess to constatly remind myself of that and not let despair take over my heart. why is it that as a christian my testimony for Him is not as strong as it should be? why is it tt i can look around me at non christians arnd and see that they are better people than i am? what kind of testimony am i? and its like i dont want to be this way and i know that God is shaping me and changing me but i do wish He had made me our to be a better person in the first place so i wun have to go thru stuff like this.
gosh so depressing this post. HMM. ok good things: NO SCH TML!!!!!! yay haha. but got git 2 :p and so funny bry actualyl asked me to wake him up! yahhhh haha. after dengs lesson on how to wake pple up i will not call and hang up anymore haha. speaking of deng, twilight zone will be fun! go go go haha. :) i must study really hard this week so tt i can go for it too! they are recceing it tonight and i hope tt God will give us a perfect place and good weather on tt day :) so funnnnnnn hees.
no matter what may come my way
my greatest love is You
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